Why I share so much about Lyra

Why I share so much about Lyra

Recently, I have noticed an increase in the discussion about sharing your children’s lives online. Especially the lives of our very little ones. The ethical debate involving the privacy of the child has come up more than once. I also know many people who are just more private about their personal lives. It got me thinking. Are people judging how much I post about Lyra online? I know that I post a lot, and I am unapologetic about it. It has gotten to the point where she has been recognized in the the grocery store by people who know my family members. Given, my family is fairly large and lives in a relatively small community, but it was a little eye opening. While it did make me think about how much I share about my daughter and our lives, it also made me want to explain why I share so much. 

1. A large portion of my family lives in other states:

When Lyra was born my husband and I lived in the Washington D.C. area. No one lived very close to us, and the initial purpose of the blog was just to let everyone know what was going on. As many of my close friends will tell you, I was basically silent about the struggles we were having for the first month of Lyra’s life. After her birth, we couldn’t post “mama and baby are doing great”, because “baby” wasn’t doing very well at all. I tried to be happy and share some moments on Facebook, but I was terrified. Eventually, I felt like I couldn’t keep things a secret anymore and I decided to let friends and family know the truth. I also didn’t want to send out giant group emails or text messages. So, this blog was created. 

2. It’s a place to share information:

Having a child like Lyra has opened my eyes to a whole world that I never knew existed. It is a scary world to be thrown into with a whole new vocabulary that I have had to learn. It also can be a very beautiful place, and I want to share both of things with people. I want to teach people what I have learned, and how to talk about it. Maybe if I teach them, they won’t be so scared if it happens to them or someone they love. I also want to share how beautiful and freeing it can be. While there are plenty of things I worry about with Lyra, there are also things I have let go of. While I was pregnant I worried about…. everything. Things like, “I hope she picks a good major in college” actually popped in my head. I worried about how she would compare to her peers. After all, we all hope to have a child that is exceptional at something. Having a child like Lyra means that I get to let all of that go. Instead, we focus on what she can do, not what she might do. There is a beauty in that.  

3. Sharing Lyra and her story is a way to connect:

I am just going to be blunt. This life is very isolating. None of my friends or family members have ever experienced what we have gone through. I don’t have anyone to talk to who really knows what it is like to be in my shoes. Don’t get me wrong, I have an incredibly supportive family who has really been there for us, but they haven’t been through it the way my husband and I have. I also have lost a number of friends since having Lyra. I don’t know if it the fact that they don’t know how to react to Lyra being special needs, or it simply puts them off, or they think that I can’t be supportive of them because I have so much on my plate. The friends who have stuck around know that I have shared in their joys and listened to their struggles, even from a hospital room.  

While no one in my immediate circle knows what the rollercoaster has been like, there are people around the world who have shared bits and pieces of what I have been through. By writing thing blog, I have been able to connect with them. And who know, maybe one day there will be another child with the same diagnosis and that parent might find my blog. And they might not feel so alone. 

4. She will always be here:

One thing I don’t like to talk about, or even really think about, is the fact that we don’t know how long we get to keep Lyra. While she is doing incredibly well right now, there is no doubt that she is medically compromised. Also, there is literally NO information about life expectancy for people with her genetic diagnosis because she is the first care. To be honest, while I have written these posts with rose colored glasses, the simple truth is that she was really in trouble a number of times during her first year of life. Since I don’t know how long I get to keep her, I want to share her. I want to share her joys and her accomplishments. I want their to be a very public record of this beautiful little spirit who has enriched my life and helped me grow so much as a person. I want to spread the lessons she has taught me about self worth and personal strength. I want to people to see her laughter that is completely contagious. The more I share her, the longer she will be around. My beautiful baby bug who makes everyone involved in her care feel like their lives are a little richer and brighter. 

So, this is why I post so much about Lyra and why I write this blog. While I 100% understand (and support) why many choose not to, I hope they understand why I do.  
Even teenage boys aren’t “too cool” for Lyra.

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